Of course when I feel happy something has to come up and put me back in a depressive state, I won’t get too into it but someone in my life is longer with me, I am not going to be uploading for a while and my mood has been shot down from extreme happiness to depression. I went to therapy and it turns out that yeah, I have depression. So no art surprisingly I say knowing that it is stupid shit I do everyday I just know in the future that something is going to come and ruin my mood. I am not going to bother making friends because I know they will leave my life after a while which hurts more, and you know what, I am done I am done I am fucking tired of trying, I will just wait until life takes me away,